Ok so I guess one thing that I omitted about myself in my last post is my fucking retarded anxiety. I am a very naturally social person and a few years ago I developed this anxiety disorder that really fucks with my whole being in such a deep and profound way that at times I just want to give up dealing with it.
For example: right now my life consists of 99% what-ever-the-fuck-I-want and approximately 1% obligation to do things that may or may not take me out of my "comfort zone" and yet here I am, sitting in my living room with a cup of tea trying to calm myself the fuck down at 4am because Ive been plagued with panic attacks in the last 24 hours for no good reason at all.
Ive read books, spent over a year in therapy, taken medications, tried homeopathic remedies... fucking everything. I just want to wake up one day and have it be magically gone.
Valium. I need lots and lots of Valium. A truckload.
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You know what else works? The combination of hydrocodone and alcohol.
booze and pills are the answer to so many prayers!
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