Recently people have commented on my apparent motivation for schooling. This is probably because I put off doing homework until I have to do so much of it that I cant do anything else. And when people ask me to hang out and I say "I cant, I have a ton of homework" they interpret this as dedication, when in fact, its just a nasty bi product of my procrastination.
I've realized that the primary motivator and/or driving force in my life as of late is fear. Sheer terror of what may happen if I dont go to school is what keeps me going to school. And school is actually a nice distraction from the gut wrenching horror that is my financial situation on a day-to-day basis. But, then there's the stress of meeting academic requirements for financial aid also lighting a fire under my ass each day - which ties the whole school/money thing together nicely.
In checking my school email I've just learned that I made the honors list for last term. Huh.
Anywho. Better get back to that damn homework.
xo
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