s usual, I am hating homework. This term, however, I feel more challenged than I ever have in a learning environment. Look, Im not gonna spend time blowing smoke up my own ass, but Im usually a pretty quick learner. Show me something, I will grasp it and be doing it on my own in no time. BUT this statics business has my brain all in knots lately. We do these intense structural analysis calculations that will get totally fucking screwed up if you lose a bit of focus at any point and you wont even notice anything has gone awry until half an hour later and then you have to go back and DO IT ALL OVER AGAIN. This happened to me and two girls in my class today. We were working as a group on an analysis of this truss and we got thirty fucking minutes into the damn thing and our teacher comes over and says, "Oh, its too bad I didnt come by sooner because I dont want you to use that method on this analysis, I want you to use THIS method..." and it wasnt even that our calculations were off, we just werent going about it in the specific WAY the teacher had wanted us to. So we had to erase everything and start all over. At one point one of the girls looked at me and said "Im going to lose it."
And last night I spend an hour on a homework problem only to realize at the very END of it that I had used a wrong angle IN THE BEGINNING and had to do the whole fucking thing over. SWEET.
Then, today at the end of class our teacher showed us a computer program that spits these analyses out in nanoseconds. Something that takes me an hour to do can be done by a computer in seconds. But, its important that I "understand HOW the computer got those numbers." UGH.
Im spending tomorrow afternoon with a tutor because I cant afford to spend any more time using wrong angles and losing hours worth of time doing the wrong damn homework problems.

Anywho! I was organizing my closet today after class and it reminded me of how girly I used to be. Drawers and shelves and racks of cute clothes that I havent worn recently because at 7am all my brain can come up with to wear to class is jeans, a t-shirt and a hoodie. Also I noticed today that my eyebrows and nails are atrocious.

*sigh*

I was entertaining myself on the drive home with the idea that when I am done with school I am going to design my own dream home. Like, design and draw the plans FOR REAL. Doing this in my spare time will take a while, but so will coming up with the money to make the thing happen. Perhaps when I am finally in a position to be a homeowner I will build it. Its going to have the greatest fucking closet and master bath EVER.

Tonight Im wearing make-up and accessories NO MATTER WHAT.

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