Schools in for winter

efore I get to where ever it is I end up going with this I would just like to acknowledge the fact that, yes, I do get away with things. I was going to start this by whining about how I never get away with anything, and then, upon further reflection, I realized that that is completely un-true. I get away with stuff. Sometimes, though, the shit other people get away with baffles me. Shit I would never even attempt. A very small and largely insignificant example of this is the state - the PHYSICAL state - in which my used physics book arrived to my house via UPS shipment from my schools bookstore. I paid $100 for the WORST looking, most marked-the-fuck-up book I have ever seen. All of the different colors of highlighter and cryptic notes and scribbles and fucking hieroglyphics all over the pages are so distracting Im certain it will be impossible for anyone to use the thing as a learning instrument. WHO did this to this book and thought, "Yeah, I'll sell this back to the bookstore because someone else will TOTALLY be stoked on what Ive done to it." and then got away with it?! I took it in today to exchange it and I had flipped through no more than 2 or 3 pages when the guy behind the counter couldnt stop himself from saying "Jesus Christ! That is TERRIBLE!" then he added "I cant believe they sent this to you." No shit, buddy.

Anyway. So yeah. Who does that? So, school is back in session and pool league is back in session as of tonight, and these are two things that I talk about way, way too much. I was thinking earlier, "my blog is totally irrelevant and I never really say anything super meaningful." But then I got to wondering if my blog really needs to be relevant or meaningful to anyone but my damn self? I concluded that it doesnt. But still, writing a boring and repetitive blog is not cute. So, whatever. Perhaps I could resolve to try and have a profound thing or two to say on here every now and then (I like vague resolutions) or at least sound clever once or twice. :)

I ran into the Baseball Player again the other night. (That happens sometimes, I guess I havent mentioned that before. Its inevitable when we live and hang out so close to each other.) For some reason I get this vibe from him like he is expecting that things between Seamus and I will run its course and I will come crawling back to him in no time, but then he is kind-of surprised when that isnt the case. And he still flirts heavily with me every time he sees me, which was hard for me at first, but is no longer a big deal. I kind-of just allow it - to be nice - but feel sorta bad inside because I am certain that there is nothing he could do or say to convince me to make a colossal mistake like jeopardizing what I have with Seamus for anything he would be willing to offer me in return. I mean, I feel bad that I allow it to happen even though... his flirting is rather pointless...

Im getting very tired and making less and less sense with each passing minute...

I should nap now. Yes. A nap is needed.

xoxo