ere's a funny thing: I have several blog posts half-written and havent finished or posted any of them!
Bringing everything up to speed is out of the cards at this point so lets gloss over the details and do a Cliffs Notes version:
Still working for small, family-owned company. There is much to say about this later.
Gearing up for school: Im currently registered for 11 credits for Fall Term: Chemistry 104, Plane Surveying and Fluid Mechanics. Im ONE credit shy of being considered a full time student and that is fucking LAME. Admittedly, I dont exactly know how being one credit shy of full time will affect my financial aid, but Im pretty sure it will in a way that is decidedly negative.
Seamus and I just celebrated 2 years of togetherness. Ive been largely absent from this blog for the majority of our relationship, so it may seem like that came out of nowhere - and even being fully present in the relationship, it feels like a super quick 2 years - but all is well. Obviously, things are never perfect or completely easy, but all is well.
Neck things seem to be in the past. Surgery went well, and although my scar is bigger and darker than I would like it to be (I was a bad girl and didnt always protect it from the sun this summer), Im healed and healthy.
In an unbelievably frustrating turn of events, my anxiety is making an unwanted comeback in my life. I want to chalk it up to having a lot going on, and I hope that once I get things rolling and into a groove, I will calm the fuck down. For now, Ive been coping in a way that I know is horrible - by drinking to numb the nerves. Well, maybe part of me is drinking to numb the anxiety and part of me is stressed the hell out and just needs a drink. Either way, an overwhelming majority of me wants to be drinking lately and its not good. Seamus has taken to calling me Murtaugh because I am constantly telling him "Im getting too old for this shit."
Lots and lots of other things are on my mind. Who knows if I will have time to post them here when school starts - between going to class, working 32 hours per week, taking an online class, homework and studying, who knows if I will have time for anything ever again!
We shall see!
2 comments:
I love updates! :)
Miss you every day! Hugs and kisses!
Ingunn.
Hey! It's awesome you posted.
* Taking pictures on the phone- my experience exactly the same - the blackberry camera sucks yet the feature that is least likely to not work, like more reliable than a text, is that post-a-pic-to-facebook one, right?
* I just had an interview about developing a play (the play, really) and when they asked me, you know, what do i want the audience to get out of it, I almost, for half a second, felt concerned that I didn't know what my answer was going to be. But then i just jumped ahead and said, "[it's] about Anxiety, right? so...."
I guess my point is that if I think any experience is universal, it's fucking anxiety.
And I am also drinking too much. Yes!
You are awesome.
-Alexis
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