Tattoos

So Im supposed to be uber productive today, but (and this may or may not be too much information - if it is, fuck off) The Curse is kicking my ass all over the place and Im moving at a slower pace than I wanted. Things are slowly falling off the to do list.

Anyway, so I have this policy for getting tattoos. Ive stuck to this policy religiously because it has kept me from getting retarded tattoos - seriously, it has saved me from getting countless tattoos that I would totally regret now. So my policy is that I dont get a tattoo unless Ive really wanted it for at least 2 years. I wait it out, and sometimes they make the cut, sometimes not so much. Well, recently my lack of money has prevented me from being able to get the one Ive been wanting next, but Ive definitely wanted it for over two years. So Ive come into a little bit of money and Im like chomping at the bit to get some ink in my skin. Then, yesterday, out of nowhere Im like "Fuck that tattoo. Im not getting it."

So heres a little background information. The tattoo would basically cover my entire left bicep with lyrics. Ok, I didnt want to write out the lyrics verbatim but I guess its sort of relevant. They are:

"Hold on to the thread
the current will shift
glide me toward you
You know somethings left
and we are allowed
to dream of
the next time we touch."

I've been absolutely in love with that verse since I was about 15. Its always been relevant in my life, as Im usually missing someone terribly. So, anyway, I love this tattoo - and Im still going to get it - but Im a little freaked out that I was ready to be like "Nope. Fuck it" yesterday because I was also feeling a little "Fuck hanging on to people, life is about letting people go" yesterday too. Which, obviously life is not completely one way or the other, but I dont know, the doubt in the tattoo freaked me out a little. Tattoos are kinda permanent.

Anyway, Im too in love with the tattoo to just toss it aside and not get it. I thought about just waiting on that one and getting something else first, but, I think that is the one I need to get first. My lack of finances has caused a backlog of tattoos I plan to get and that one has been first in line for a long time.

So I definitely need to get that one next. And soon.

In other news, my homework load is getting a little more manageable. I think Im getting into the swing of things a little. Although two of my classes are about to get super paper-intensive. So, my opinion of being on top of my homework may change. Alternatively, I could be proactive and get started on those papers now, while things are "manageable". That would be smart.

Speaking of, I should get back to that productivity I was talking about.

xoxo