I gotta stop these bullet point list posts. No one is interested in my stupid half assed lists. I’m just so unmotivated lately that all I seem to be able to eek out is a stupid list.
I’m so annoyed by everything lately. Mostly work. Since the word "assistant" is in my title, its sort of left to everyone’s judgment what the hell it is I do, and what are appropriate tasks to give to me. Often these tasks are legitimate, but sometimes its just a stupid task that some jackass thinks he is too important for. These are the types that I fantasize luring to the roof of our 22 floor building and pushing them off.
Also my desk seems to always be situated so that people are lingering BEHIND me. I *HATE* that. Stop looking over my shoulder. Definitely STOP reading my email or whatever it is I’m typing at the moment. Who does that? Who actually thinks that’s acceptable behavior?
People at work have started complaining to me that I’m not my usual chipper self. Complaining to me. I just want to yell "FUCK YOU! Life sucks sometimes and its impossible to be completely unaffected! Stop being so selfish!"
In other news my heart is breaking. Progressively more and more everyday. The worst part about this stupid blog is that I’ve started censoring it because I don’t know who is reading it when, but I’ve decided that that needs to stop. I mean, to a certain degree. Clearly not everything should be "public" knowledge, but what the hell is the point of having a stupid censored blog? There is no point.
So yeah, my heart is breaking and I cant concentrate at work and I have to stay motivated to get someone to take over my lease on the house and I need to drink WAY less. Drinking with friends is all I seem motivated to do lately and that cant be a good thing. Plus I’m getting too old for that shit.
But I’m hopeful. Hopeful for better times, healthier living and better blogging (so important!) so at least my priorities are straight.
3 comments:
Obviously, I hope things turn around for you soon. In the meantime, may I say that lists are DOPE and it's ALWAYS ok to just do a list post on the blog.
Thanks buddy. Yeah, lists are ok when they are well thought out or at least a little entertaining. I feel like my lists have been lacking both. :\
But! Heres hoping that better times and lists are on their way!
xo
I read it.
On Sunday mornings usually.
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